Tonight, I wanna cry....

I do cognitively understand that I am in no way a failure for never earning regional awards on KM Kenny D (Kenny). This thought, however true, does not change my feelings about the situation.

I am happy that Haley and Kenny work so well together; they are a good team. These two will accomplish a lot of things. This is good for both the horse, and the rider.

I wish people wouldn’t forget who showed this horse while he was unhealthy. I put a lot of energy into him, and I feel like I failed. Haley is not stronger than I am, just heavier. Haley is not a better rider than I am, just younger. Youth competition is less rigorous than adult competition. Kenny is not the same horse who fell over as you braided him; he can feel his feet today. I feel overlooked, forgotten, and like my contribution meant nothing. I feel like I wasted my time. I feel like I failed.

Now that I have released this into the world, I'm going to cry.