What I Meant To Say...

Here is what I've been meaning to write. Be patient, and forgive some of the errant thoughts. This is not well formed or polished in any way. That will come after I have wrecked the dam, so to speak. Also, take this with a grain of salt, this is how I think, aloud, or at least, in some what I can revisit my thoughts on a later date.

So, here I am, holding up somebody again. I feel so much like this will be Brianna again, that I will hurt again. I don't want that, but how does one change a patter that is long held? To just stop is such a simplistic thing; but I would love to be able to do just that, stop. If I didn't invest, wouldn't that be grand? The flipside of that is, would I be fulfilled and happy? Is there a way for this to cycle without my getting gutted like a fish? God, I hope so.

Avalanche

"Here I am, caught up in grace like an avalance, nothing compares to this love..."

Hellz yea. Thank God for things like grace, forgiveness, and peace.

Writing...

I think I need to start writing again.