Cool...

I'm currently sitting in the common/living room of my NEW digs. I'm hangin out with my new roomies Deedee and Nancy. We're watching "The Other Boylen Girl", and I am liking this. There are people here, who talk to you! AMAZING. I think this is going to be a good place to live.

Is it Friday yet?

Tuesdays and Thursdays are a complete waste of my time. If I’m going to drag my ass out of bed, get dressed, buy breakfast, drive to Monmouth, fight with compact cars for a parking space, AND sit in class with two snooze-o-rific professors I expect them to say something interesting.

Is that too much to ask?

What can I fix?

Nothing. That's what I can fix. Well, unless it's directly related to me, myself, and I.

I wish that this fact was different. If I had a magic wand, or potion, or something, some way to fix things. To make it all better, make the hurt go away... If I had that super power...

My oldest friend, who is 30, revealed to me today that she was most likely sexually abused by her step father.

I'm crushed. For her. For every woman.

Stepping Back

It’s a personal space issue,
Sir. Stay back 3 feet
from my edges. Please,
for my safety. I don’t want
to cut you to pieces… today.

I’m not a monster, nor
a drowning damsel. I don’t want
a man so close, as to save me.
I am not in trouble. Sir,
step back now. Keep
your hands inside your pockets
your coat pockets. Out of
my sight. I don’t want to
see

You, or your hands. I don’t
want you close enough to touch
because I don’t need to be
held together, or pulled apart
again and again. I don’t need
to be bent by anything but the
wind or the wild. I will not
compromise with you.

What in the Hell?

So, I've had horses for about 10 years now, as an owner. I've leased, lessoned, worked in barns, and been around horses since I was 6. So, I've had time to learn some things about their care; thought I in no way am counting myself as an expert. My own horses are happy, healthy, sound, and I think they're thriving. Sometimes I make mistakes, sure, I'm human and I'm learning. However, along the way, as I've learned more and more about how to care for these magnificent animals I am beginning to see just how many people have no clue how much care and thought goes into caring for a horse, let alone more than one horse.

Here's an ad I saw on craigslist.com recently:
we are new to owning horses and are kind of learning as we are going.. one of our horses that we got free from craigslist (and dont really know much about) is starting to lose weight.. we have switched her from a hay only diet to a hay/grain mix, and have started feeding her twice a day instead of just in the mornings but it doesnt seem to be helping at all. we are very worried she is going to continue losing weight and arent exactly sure what to do! i do know that if their teeth arent regularly floated that can cause weight loss, but i dont know how often, or when the last time she had hers done was. we've only had her for a month or two.. can somebody give me some info on it? like about how much it costs, who does it (recommendations are appreciated too!), how often, etc? or if there may be another cause to her weight loss and how to check? thank you

Where do I begin to identify the serious issues to horse care? How about the beginning of this... posting.

Learning as you go, without professional support is dangerous to you, and your animals.

Free horses often need to be vetted. They're also generally free for a reason; behavioral issues and health concerns usually rank very high. This particular animal sounds like she would be considered geriatric. Those horses are riddled with health concerns.

Horses losing weight are screaming that they need better care.

Horses need to be fed at least twice a day, unless they're on pasture. Even then, they require supplementation, like people, horses need vitamins too.

If you don't know what to do about a situation with a horse, especially a health related situation, call a vet.

Floating teeth can really help a weight issue. So can worming, proper diet, and appropriate exercise.

Posting like these are becoming very common. "Oh, it sounds like fun, let's take a free horse!" Bam! Bills, behavioral issues, training issues... You end up with at 1200lb animal that you cannot handle safely. You end up with a 1200lb animal that is a significant financial drain on your family.

Please people, leave the horse care to people who know what they're doing and can afford to take on that level of responsibility. I'm not saying that people can't find success in learning as they go; sometimes that works just fine. I also have to share concern for these horses. Really, it's a concern for any animal who might be suffering health issues because owners/caregivers don't know how to help them.

What Is Mine

Those lips are mine to kiss
like the arms are my blankets
his chest my bed of roses
and daisies where I’m wrapt up
like a memory, tied with a bow

or handcuffs to a bed frame.
If we had the time I’d see all the
soft spaces; the mirror shards, you’re
my silk sack of broken glass.

The elemental man of water you
become and destroy; dangerous in your
depth to swallow me whole. My wind carries
the passions to land, taking over the
earth in a thought or glance, we are
forces together, unstoppable and grand.

If we are joined again, let it be at
the hips, to grind out a new pact
or peaceful resolution. We are not longer
deserving of each other, too much blood
under the bridge that we build again and again.

I want more than the bleeding wounds;
I want to gaze into why you breathe
for me; bring me back that moment,
hold my hands while I ask; you love me don’t you?
answer me honestly. Yea, I guess I do.

I’m back on the hood
of your car, in silver and warm
wrapped in your arms; falling asleep
waiting for you to carry me home;

so put me there
and bring me back to life
after I've dreamt
of things past and future.